Inadequacy

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released November 28, 2015

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Track Name: New Place
You are on your own
Without a hope or a family
With no one to call your own
Say what you are to me
Say what you were to me
Say what you are to me
Now
Track Name: New People
A full room
Alone and soon
No one to talk about it
Pleasantries change
your self is arranged
to scared to go and talk to sound her
your courage is drained
your mind is unframed
I guess it's time to go and face a choir

So you say, you are not, like anyone who came before
So you say, I forgot, my mind is like the setting sun.
So you say I am not, like all the ones who came before
So you say I forgot, my mind is like the setting sun
So you say I forgot, so you say I forgot.

With a shift in the room I feel acidic in my mouth
I must say I don't feel myself right now
I must say I don't feel myself now

I wish I could melt into the wall
Leave this conversation because it reminds me
Of my hopes, of my fear, of just how cruel people can be
Track Name: Quarterlife Inadequacy
You asked me what I could provide for this world
I said I could give a quiet life for me and a girl, if she would
You said that sounds like just laying down to give up

Because I am inadequate, I'm inadequate,
and I'm scared of it, I'm scared of it

You wish you could say more of your life than it, it just was
You wish you could fill it with whatever you can, that seems real
and I won't lie it feels like you are settling for an ideal
and I can't play the part in the life that you put out

I'm inadequate, I'm inadequate
and I'm scared of it, I'm scared of it

I can't equal what you see in your mind
I'm just a child playing a man once in a while
And if you insist on growing up so damn fast
buy a house, have a child, find a wife, be happy then
buy a house, have a child, find a wife, be happy then
I'm sure you'll be happy then

You asked me what I could provide for this world
I said I could guarantee the happiness of just myself, myself alone
you said it's so selfish to just care for your life
Because I'm inadequate, I'm inadequate
and I'm O.K. with it, I'm O.K. with it
I'm inadequate, I'm inadequate
and I'm O.K. with it, I'm O.K. with it
Track Name: Fine
Hope is only Loneliness

I wait around hoping I would catch your eye
Now darling I
I am no good at that

My mind tells me that I want you as part of a pair
So I
I try to interact

The hope that you bring to my life is more
Than I knew exists
In these modern times

But hope is all that pins my brain down to the floor
So I
I have come to resign


It's one o'clock in the afternoon
We're drunk enough and if not we will be soon
I want to kiss you I want to feel you near
But I am so afraid
You'll say
It is still
My turn to be alone


Modern times are all we have
They say all modern things are bad
Theorists say your only choice
Is to stick your flag
On a sinking boat.
And I
Wish you
Would sink to the bottom with me

They say people our age can only
Care about themselves
That all these I's and lack of we's will lead
To a breakdown of reality
And I
Wish your I
Could be a we with me

And if the end of it all is as close as they say
Then I'm afraid of dying alone
At a time when hope is all I have in life
So I
Wish you
Would just not pass me by


It's three o'clock in the afternoon
I'm drunk enough and you will be soon
You looked into my eyes and my nerve wasn't there
And all I could say was I know I'm not what you want,
or you need or you care
But please, please, please

Please, please, don't pass me by
Please, please, don't pass me by

I know it's not fair I know it's not right
To think you would want to spend your nights with me
When I can't even stand myself
When I can't stand by myself
And I wish I could be something more
And I wish I could be something more
To you
To you
To make you care

That modern times are all we have
They say all modern times are bad
So I give you this thoroughly modern choice
You can stay with me or just leave me alone
Track Name: Wait Life
I feel myself grow
Older with the fade of promise
It wasn't like teachers told
Work has not lead to progress

The work, the work, it's true
It doesn't have much to do with you
The words, the words, they say
They aren't what they are cracked up to be
Time and fate it's true
It's all ambivalent towards you
These words, these words I say
Aren't what they are meant to be
Time and fate it's true
It's all Ambivalent towards you
These words, these words they say
Aren't what they are meant to be.

I've been waiting all my life
for someone to tell me I did it just right
I’m just trying.

I ran so hard just to get to the start
It sounds kind of zen but I swear that its not.
I’m just lying.

When I get to that invisible line will I be mature enough to know that it’s time.
I’m not looking.

These things seem to be my faults. I guess it’s just part of being an adult.
I’m just waiting.

I’m just waiting for life begin.
Track Name: Wait Love
I used to think people defined my purpose
In my ability to care
For twenty years I wandered
Asking if they were there

So I filled my time with your love
Until it became an idea
I knew you only as surface
Until thats what I called real

And to this life
I serviced
So happiness was unreal

You left me alone for so long
I forgot how people feel
The warmth your hand on my thigh
A touch of your breath from your mouth
My words upon your body
Were all I had left

It took me twenty years to find love
What's twenty more
Track Name: Time Tense
You were born whenever
It's not like it defines what you do with your life, oh, oh
What you want from it is
Is a word in a book thats a lie, I don't think I would try oh, no
You were made so vibrant, you feel every tick of time
Except the one that beats inside, oh, oh
You said your life was over you were young but
You'd run out of time out of time, oh oh

You're so set in your fears and set in your ways
you tried to put your fear into mine
I can't live that lie, no
To you life is a weight you drop on yourself
And it crushed you, you think that's just fine
Thats it's just fine no
And to live under all that pressure
All of which of it you have supplied
Doesn't make for a very good, time

You were safe yourself but,
You made me doubt all that defined my life and times, oh, oh
What you replaced it with was,
was a fear of the future
That I can't survive, oh, no
In of a life of possibles
you said I'd guessed wrong every time
like an ending line, oh, oh
If that's the truth then, I won't waste any more of your time
your fucking time, oh, no

You're so set in your fears and set in your ways
so you tried to put your fear into mine
I can't live that lie
To you life is a weight you drop on yourself
And it crushed you, you think thats just fine
Thats just fine no
And to live under all that pressure
all of which of it you have supplied
Doesn't make for a very good, time
Track Name: Safe House
I saw your face
From every hall
I heard your voice
Off every wall
And you were never really there
You were never there at all
I thought things were getting better
But they haven't changed at all

I walked away oh late last night
Back to my troubled home oh late last night
When I stepped inside its not my life
When I stepped inside its not my life
Its so dark this house of mine
The things I have bring night
And I wish I felt safe at night
And I wish I felt safe at all

It's so dark this room of mine
With nothing but my mind and time
Hope is all that I survive a little walk away a light outside

A little walk away a light outside

I thought things were getting better
Thought I could make it on my own
But now I know better
Theres nothing in this life alone
And you were never really there
You were never really there at all
And now I know better
I have to make this life my own

I can make it on my own.

Have a safe walk back to you house
Have a safe life back in you're home
and if you have someone waiting
for you at home
hold them close to your heart
because your not safe in you're home
you're not safe in your home